Therapy Update

Good News

I got some good news today.В I am seeing the social worker from my obstetrician’s office on Wednesday and she has agreed to see me as a therapy patient in her private practice starting in a few weeks.В I guess I can only see her a few times through the clinic, but she’ll continue to see me as a patient beyond that to help me deal with my grief.

Mood

I have been unable to get a lot of sleep.В It’s been difficult to feel any better without that though last night was definitely better than other nights.В My appetite is also starting to tank and I’ve been having issues with intrusive thoughts yet again.В I am trying to stay positive and stay on my medications.В I may call the psychiatrist to find out if I can take my Ambien at night along with the other medications I am on.В  Hopefully, the answer is yes.

I have been crying the past few days.В I’m angry and sad all at the same time.В I don’t know how Jason and I could have been given such a gift only to have it taken away.В It seems like we’ve been through so much and that we are going through all of this for nothing.В Then, I remember I have the ultrasound pictures of Alex and that I was truly happy while I was pregnant with my baby.

I am hoping that I can get sleep and take care of my nutrition.В This will help keep my mood stable.В It’s hard enough to deal with the grief.В It will be nearly impossible to do if I start rapid cycling or if I enter a mixed episode.В I am just hoping and praying that I can keep my head above water.

Work

I return to work tomorrow.В I called the corporate office to let them know I was returning to my first scheduled shift this week.В They were so kind.В Apparently, there was a bit of a mix-up with my doctor’s note, but everything was handled.В The only thing that I may have had to do was to resend the note which the HR person found.

Then, I called the store.В The person from the executive office was so rude.В She basically threatened to have me fired because I had to go on a leave so soon after starting the job.В I can’t help what happened to me.В Further, she accused me of failing to notify my manager and I explained I had already spoken to her.В She was able to answer my questions about my strange shift tomorrow.В I’m scheduled to come in 3 hours prior to the store opening, but it is for training.

I spoke with Jason.В I don’t earn much in this job and we discussed my options.В I am going into the store tomorrow and I will see how things go.В If people give me a hard time, I will contact corporate to report the issue to them.В If they continue to do so, I will simply quit.В My health, physical and mental, comes before this job.

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